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EOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-12-15T18:31:00.000-08:00

EOY was so tiring -.-zzzz

Especially in 15cm Platforms!!!!
My feet started to hurt after 2hrs of walking/standing x.x
Lucky i brought normal shoes to change out of once EOY was over~

Anyway here are pics of our team....Well more like uncompleted team cause Ayu ran away somewhere,Stefy was grounded and Calyx got into an accident O-O I really hope she is ok....We were all worried abt what happened to her!!! But all we know frm her father was that she got into an accident and is in hospital x.x

Note* : These pics aren't mine....i took them my sgcafe >< SORRY FOR TAKING THE PICS WITHOUT ASKING PERMISSION WHOEVER'S IS IT!!!!

Oh yea....Shinodax was suppose to be in our team....but he changed into the disorder version instead -.- Either way....he is the best Reita cosplay i have seen in singapore so far x.x

His hair was so hard!!!!! x.x
And again i took these pics frm sgcafe again ><

It was abit boring....but it was ok overall x.x
.....I wanted more people to take my pics T^T
But our vests were with calyx(which was in the hospital)so we kindda cosfucked i guess ><

Some people were calling me chibi -.- including Rukai!!!!
Oh yea i smacked himu a total of 10 times that day XD
I should have kicked him.....Oh well......maybe next time ^^

Bleah.....

2007-12-01T22:25:00.000-08:00

Nothing much to talk about nowadays.....Went to watch Enchanted on Friday....It was abit too....'Girly' and 'Lovey dovey' For my liking....
Rukai followed along......Everyone was calling him emo and saying something about cute little boy -.-

Rukai looked cute in his default faceup

I wouldn't call him cute now....more emo...i guess....

Anyway random pic spam now.....

I feel so lonely

Maybe you can help me?

Or maybe i would wait for my troubles to go away..

Memories i cannot get rid off

Maybe my answers are far from my reach

I keep waiting....

But noone seems to hear me

Ok Thats all the pics i editted....I will put the other ups later i guess...

Poser.....

2007-11-20T21:40:00.001-08:00

I find this Beetch really really annoying -.-
She is such a poser!

She is like Ruki this and Ruki that
And she only like/'loves' him for his looks Please!

Sure i go around saying Ruki this and Ruki that
but he wasn't the first gazemen i love....Kai was but after awhile i realise that i love Ruki instead cause of his character,voice and looks ^^ oh yea and he is cute XD

I draw Ruki so i stare at his picture for a long time and she is like 'oh i see ruki everyday' PUH-LEASE!
If she sees ruki everyday i see him every seconds of my life >:O

I bet if i asked her 'What is Ruki's real name' Or 'When is Ruki's Birthday' she wouldn't even know...Which totally shows that she is a poser

If she does so what big deal...I can ask her one question which only people who read/saw his blog or interview would know. 'What does Ruki sleep in on normal days (Before he became famous/or his indies days)' She wouldn't even know!

Well i know *grins*

And her english is terrible!
And she is like Ai Gazette,Ai Ruki

Anyway her is the bitch's blog -.-
http://l0vesonlyonex333.blogspot.com/

Also she goes around insulting Ayu!
Sure her eyes are big and so are mine but not every single person in the god damn bloody earth have perfectly small pretty eyes -.-

My final words of her in my blog
FUCK OFF! AND LEAVE AYU AND MY RUKI ALONE!

Cain & Abel <3

2007-11-04T03:01:00.001-08:00

OMG!!!!! Angell-studio's Cain and abel are hot!!! not to mention cheap!!!!

Presenting Cain!

Abel can look like Uruha if the face up was different

Sexy~

I want both!!!

Each cost about 400SGD which is reasonable!
I want them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't speak/type chinese for nuts which means i have to get someone to communicate with the company for me x.x

I seriously want CAIN! HE IS SEXY!!!!!!! <3333333333333333333

I shall try saving up abit more T^T about $300 more to save ._.

Anyway i will try my best!!!
Cain! You have to be Rukai's Seme!!!!!
Rukai is waiting for you!!!!!!!

Well i think i would name Cain
Ashiro Takanori

No idea how i came up with the surname but the first name is Ruki's real name :D

Anyway I WILL GET CAIN!!! (Or atleast try to get him)

A sad life

2007-11-04T03:01:00.000-08:00

I'm feel really sad about this guy's life T^T

His father didn't even care about him and left
His Mother went to a mental institute when he was the age of 1 because of depression
His sister never got a chance to live
He stayed with his uncle and aunt
He had no love

When he was younger he would stay at home starving till his uncle came back with abit of food
He would eat very little when he was young
He had to earn a living at the age of 13
He worked hard for his money and he was happy if he was able to get a proper meal

He worked odd jobs
He has no home,no love, noone to care for him since the age of 1
He sees his father but he has his own children now

He says "I love you" Like he was saying thank you.
He says this because he has never been loved before

I would not tell who he is yet but i'm really lucky that i have parents who care and love me
Oh yea this is real....If you meet him he seems happy but you wonder after all he has been through how he is able to smile....Even i wonder

I want to be his friend.....

Kyoshi Rukai <3

2007-10-23T01:27:00.001-07:00

I finally got him!!!!!

Bleah....never update so long -.-.....

Anyway....

Pic spam!!!!!!!

My emo boy <3

Ru-chan trying act like his father >////<

Innocent Rukai

Random pic of him smoking

Rukai: Don't take pics of me!

Another cool pose

Ok thats all the pics i have so far.....
Will take more pics as soon as i sew for him more clothing and get him restringed....

CLICK 5!!!!

2007-10-23T01:27:00.000-07:00

OMFG!!!!!!!!

Click 5 came to my school!!!!!! *Fangirls*
I wasn't a fan of theirs at first but i thought that the guy in the middle looked cute when i saw the advert....

We were asked to record/take pics of the event....
I had the video cam so it was ok cause i didn't need to move anywhere...(lazy)
I had to stand on a table cause it was going to be chaotic and they didn't want the camera/camera person to be hurt.....

When i was standing up there i felt really really tall ^^V
I was eyeing the albino guy that was standing at the back...He can so cosplay Bou! His hair colour was white...its natural of course.... x.x

I wish i was a albino...that way can have very pale hair colour and have very very nice eyes too *daydreams*
But the sad part is that albinos have a very high chance of getting skin cancer x.x
........

Oh yea while standing on the table, i was taller then the male teachers~ Muhahaha!
The camera was working with me and so was the tripod....

When the click 5 members arrive, I swear i thought i was about to die x.x
One because of the fangirl screams, and two i was about to fall off the table...and oh yea....i kindda started screaming myself x.x (maybe because everyone else was screaming x.x)

The DJs from Muttons in the morning/midnight were funny as usual :D
They first said about giving out Click 5 merchandise but in the end they came there themselves.....so it was kinnda...surprising for some but for me i found it...kinnda strange when they said that they were giving out their merchandise cause that would mean that they lose alot of money...so i kindda suspected that they were coming there......

They must be having a jet lag cause they seemed....zombified/dull/bored/tired...(Ok you get it...)

Ben looked pissed off x.x but i guess its because of the jet lag or maybe he didn't get enough sleep....

Kimberly(the girl which made this possible) got a hug from ben and her friend too( forgot her name x.x)

When they were about to leave...they were stopped by fangirls/school girls..... and they were giving autographs! But the stupid conselor didn't let me go down(damn her)

Ms Tay got lots of their autograph! and so did my principal!!! WTF!!! I WANTED THEIR AUTOGRAPHS SO THAT I COULD SELL IT ON EBAY!!!!! (what luck....oh well...)

I think i would appear on tv tonight~ *crosses fingers*
In the end I ended up chasing them till the school gates....i waved to them ^^ they waved back of course~ One of them showed us a heart shaped thing and waved it~ So cute!!!

Kyle is cute ^^

Ok enough fangirling for now i guess....
BUT GAZETTE IS STILL MY ONE AND ONLY LOVE!!! AND SO IS RUKI!! NOONE WILL TAKE HIS PLACE IN MY HEART!! <3
Love ya Ruki ^^ (Sorry i didn't fangirl about you ><)

I really hope that the Gazemen come to singapore!!! <3
I would hug...ok more like glomp Ruki and never let go~ Ruki is mine!!!!!
MUHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-.- Money problems again..........

2007-10-09T01:38:00.004-07:00

-.- .....I spent all my money ><
Now don't have enough money for anything.....

I need to pay up about $135 to alice for Rukai
Its not a bad price cause she is changing the acrylic eyes to Glass eyes which looks better...and they are very bright ^^

After that I need to pay up the deposit for my pants and creepers ><
Ok I'm so killing myself already....My parents would kill me further if I work so I need to ask my siblings for the extra $$ T^T

Either way I'm going to be broke! Whats more I wouldn't get money for Mon-wed cause no sch!! NOOOO!!!
I only have about one week left of sch...Which means I would be able to save up about.....at least $60...I'M DOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-.- Well it is all left to my results for my exam....if they turn out good then I would get $400 and maybe I might get Ducan...(Prays for both)

Well I can live without Ducan for now but I seriously need the $400 now!!!!
Ok..I should plan my budget more x.x.......

I hate my obession over spending money......

If I had three whishes I wish for.....

2007-10-09T01:38:00.003-07:00

If I had three wishes...
I wish to have tons of money,
Receive lots of love and to achieve my dreams

I have the same wishes like Ruki....Which is....What a normal person would wish for...I guess....

Today was tiring....
The science exam was a drag -.- I'm sure to fail...Oh well....

After it I went to Bugis ^^
Was walking around for quite awhile x.x.....

Went there and visited some shops...
I felt so bad disturbing Alice ><
I sms-ed her and asked her if its possible to pay up abit for the remaining deposit for the dollfie cause I'm afraid of using it up x.x...
She was still sleeping....I didn't know >///<
Anyway she came down to the shop and we sat there talking to her....
Dawn was having such a hard time trying to choose what to get but in the end she didn't get anything cause the boots she wanted was too ex and she didn't have that much at that time......

I was happily playing with Hime's Ruki(BJD) ^^
His dread locks are long~
Sad that he can't stand with his boots on...He can only stand when he is bare-footed.....
I'm really excited~ CAN'T WAIT FOR MY OWN BJD!!! KYOSHI RUKAI!!! MY SON!!! I'm waiting for you!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok....nevermind....
Anyway met Orange and paid the money for the batch order...I didn't recognise her x.x (paiseh paiseh)

Went to suntec city and trust me...My feet were about to break off *dies*
I needed water at that time but of all times my mum didn't put a bottle of water in my bag x.x......

Anyway I drew Uruha right after finishing my paper as well...I had 30 mins to do nothing except stare at the clock......

At suntec I drew Reita ^^

YAY I'M BACK TO DRAWING AGAIN!!!
CHEERS ALL~ HOPE THE RESULTS COME OUT GREAT! *Cheers*

Lets play a little game ^^

2007-10-09T01:38:00.002-07:00

Ok...I'm bored so anyway...I want to play a little which goes like this...

I'll type out the lyrics of a gaze song and try guessing ^^ Oh yea...Its in English ^^

First one

A wintry sky and the broken streetlight cold wind.
Unknown shadow the footprint of desertion.
Freedom was taken.

If it wakes up a gloomy ceiling.
A laughing voice sinks in the eardrum it is soiled.
And violence rapes me.

An understanding is impossible.
Why was I chosen? Someone should answer…

Please answer me it is a horrible dream.
How much should I shout, writhe and suffer?
Please tell me it is a horrible dream.
I shouted many times with losing voice

There is no hand of preparing of the disordered hair.
A laughing voice sinks in the eardrum a faint temperature is mixed in the midwinter.

I persuaded myself, who had a dying voice and began writhing.
Not to lose for living.
I was drowned in the night when I feared and had a dying voice.
Please forgive my dying breath.

Please answer me it is a horrible dream.
How much should I shout, writhe and suffer?
Please tell me it is a horrible dream.
I want to smile again at last.

Try guessing ^^

ONLY ONE MORE EXAM TO GO!!!!!!!!!

2007-10-09T01:38:00.001-07:00

ONE MORE EXAM TO GO AND I'M FREE!!!!!!!!!!

Art went well....except when the water went on my work -.-....
It was so bad...my final piece did smudge much(thanks God)

my guy looks so much like Uru ^^
i hate watercolours.....they are very hard to handle x.x

The skin tone is freaking hard I tell you....I had to go through a number of colours and mixing until I got a light skin tone x.x....

The girl in my pic looked....horrible..(Result of drawing to many guys)

While I was drawing Vanila(Gackt) was playing in my head x.x
Then I was mentally arguing with myself over the skin tone and the shading......
I love the way i painted the guy's lips :D

It was so nice and pale *Dances around*
I didn't do the shading properly cause...I was in panic..><

Ok....Now I need to revise through chem...Such a sucky subject -.-...
Bio is interesting *Smirk*
Physics is easy...Once you actually get it....

Sian....One more fucking exam and I'm free!!!! FREE LIKE A BIRD!!!!!

Oh yea! On friday, We are going to have a alcohol party :D
Which means SPARKLING GRAPE JUICE!!!!

Oh yea Courtney is going to make Sea Salt ice cream too...I think x.x
We are going to...have fun I think...(Not in the perverted way)....
But I would drink till I get drank...maybe a few sips ^^(Just to stay safe)

MUHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!

Art~

2007-10-09T01:38:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is my Art exam....

I already did my research...Now need to paint and make it better.....
I hate drawing small pics....I had to draw small so that a few sketches can fit in the last page x.x....

I suck in drawing small things...

Anyway Hope I do well ^^
This my only chance!!!

I need an A for this!!!! If not I would kill myself....Ok maybe not but I would be emo-ing............

At least I would be able to draw Ruki/Uruha and Mana...
Don't understand what I mean??

Well....I would using Ruki's face structure, Uru's Facial Features and Of course Mana's Girly features :D

Yes...I'm killing myself....Oh well...I love killing myself anyway ^^
I have gone mad!!!!!

Fuck....No more ink....

2007-10-06T23:41:00.001-07:00

I feel like killing Mr Sim....DIE MR SIM!!!!

He made my printer ink finish with his notes!!!!
(not that I'm saying that I don't want his notes...)

Sian...Now no ink to print out for my art exam research.......
..................................

I'M BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY SON!!!! I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TO PAY UP FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

RUKAI!!! my darling beloved son T^T I'm such a bad parent... T^T

Now I know how parents feel like....Spending money on their children...but for them Children are like....Free....While I have to pay $350 for him -.-.....

IGNORE MY RANTING!!!
(exam stress)

Pink?!

2007-10-05T05:03:00.000-07:00

RUKI IN PINK SO ULTRA CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He makes pink look good~
I usually hate pink but once its on him I guess I love it XD
Ok...I'm being biased again -.-....

Anyway...

Ruki's Jacket!!!!!!!!!

I love his belt!!! <3

Sian...I need to draw jrockers for art...Not that I'm complaining but It just so hard...And I hate researching -.-.....

I prefer to just draw on the spot...but Research does it part in some work at times..........

Ok Carry on with your life and ignore me~

Exams are a killer.....

2007-10-04T03:04:00.000-07:00

Finished Eng,MT,Lit....(At least I not worry about MT anymore)

Tomorrow have Geography -.- I hate it...But its okay I guess......
Next week got History,Maths,Art(My fav <3) And science....

Still have to suffer till all are over T^T
Today for Lit I think my hand almost died....I wrote 7-8pages worth of words (Didn't leave lines) for 2hrs straight....Its a miracle my hand still lives....

I didn't do the last question properly cause I only had 30mins left to finish x.x
I hate myself....-.-...

I hope I get at least a 70 for all that writing.....
Or else I would kill the marker!!! (Wish I could)

Sian.............
Need to save up hell lot of money x.x
Need to save up about $80 for my Rukai's Clothings,wig and accessories....and $175 for the remaining deposit for Rukai......

Selling my punk tops to Vogue so can get atleast $90 out of that....
I need to start working once exams are over~

ZOMG!!!!

2007-09-28T01:39:00.001-07:00

OMG!!!
The prices for the wigs for BJD are like CHEAP!!!!
Well from Sunny's World that is.....

Single colour wigs are like 10RMB = 2 SGD!!!
Double coulor wigs are 15RMB = 3 SGD

I'm getting 4 single colour wigs and one double XD

I'm also going to get Boots for my boy for like about less then $25!!!

The clothes they sell there are like super bloody cheap!!

The PJs and Pants are like about $10.50 for a SD!!!!
And the white shirt is $7!!
There is also this layered kind of shirt which is about $7.60!

Whee! I shall continue drooling over the prices~
Cya!!

I need a job -.-

2007-09-28T01:39:00.000-07:00

I seriously need a job...
I need $175 by the end of Oct and I need more money for Cosplay costumes,Dollfie clothes and other things T^T

Went to many places to look for part-time job....
Found one at Kovan Mac's

They pay $3.50 per Hour...And I would have to work for 4-6 hrs...
Its ok I guess...

Daily(4Hrs): $3.50x4= $14
Weekly(4Hrs): 14x5= $70
Month(4hrs): $70x4= $280

Daily(5Hrs): $3.50x5= $17.50
Weekly(5Hrs):$17.50x5= $87.50
Month(5hrs): $87.50x4= $350

Daily(6Hrs): $3.50x6= $21
Weekly(6Hrs):$21x5= $105
Month(6hrs): $105x4= $420

I can make so much money!!!
I mean all I do is just stand at the counter and say "Hi, Can I take your order"
-.- How hard is it to say that...Sure it would be really paiseh if you see someone you know but hack care!! I'm earning money here!!!

Yup...Now need to convince my parents so that I can work...

Today was fun =D

2007-09-24T02:14:00.002-07:00

Today I was pissed off at first...Cause I waited so long for them -.-....

We studied abit...Well I did my studying well I was waiting for them...Not sure if they actually studied but I did go through some things ^^

Later went to the toilet at Mac's....The toilet bowel was automated which was really really annoying..-.- Cause it kept flushing.... Anyway we went in and Styled our hair and was cam-whoring in the toilet.

After that We went to Alice 88th~
Alice is really nice <3 She kept giving as advice and she also gave us interest/deposit for the dollfies and clothing!!
We were talking about Dollfies for about 1hr x.x But it was ok ^^

I finally one step closer to getting my dollfie!! Kyoshi Rukai(San) will come around end Oct~ So I would have enough by then I guess... I also need to get clothes for him!!! If not he would be *ahem* Naked *ahem*. So I'm not that evil to let my Precious Son(to be) not have clothing...What kind of father(mother) would I be??

I deceiced to name him Kyoshi Rukai cause I love both the names so I made it to a full name ^^
Kyoshi= Bad luck till death(I think...)
Rukai= Ruki's and Kai's names combined

Rukai would be so emo *Evil Laughter*
I gave him such a sad past ><
But he looks cute & emo at the same time...Thats why I love him so much <3

After talking to Alice for quite awhile I had to run off to SP...
Me and Pearlyn were 1 1/2 hrs late ><

Before going into class I met Icy...
His hair is fluffy...I want his shirt...White long sleeves....
He looks abit nerdy but he looks ok at the same time so to me..He looks normal...(Sorry for being Frank)

Went to class and finished my animation within 15mins ^^
It turned out ok but boring....After that I was reading Fanfics again....
I shall continue my fanfic with lemon this time tomorrow...I think...

Anyway thats what happened today...Pretty much normal but Fun ^^
I can't wait for my SON!!!!!

Yaoi in sch??Grins

2007-09-24T02:14:00.001-07:00

Ok Me,Shiying and Pearlyn deceided to pair both Mr Tan(Maths/Chemistry) and Mr Pang(Physics) up ^^

So going to write a little fanfic...and don't worry there isn't lemon...(If i wrote lemon Courtney would kill me x.x Anyway here goes....

Mr Pang sat down at his desk and pulled out a red pen to start grading a huge pile of papers, but it wasn't long before his eyes wandered to what had caught his attention.

Marcus Tan, A very emotional teacher,workaholic and well...You get the idea...

Mr Pang noticed that Marcus seem to be even more stressed and upset then usual. Walking towards the destressed man, His chest pressed against the shorter of the two's shoulder. Leaning close he brought his lips to Marcus's ear and whispered,
"Had a tough day again?"
Mr Tan jumped due to the sudden question, making his eyes widen and blush go deep enough to make even a tomato question it's own color.
"Don't do that!" He said shovering Mr pang aside.
"Sorry just alittle concerned" He said murmbling.
"Nah...Its ok...My students all seem to not respect me and they always end up failing...I try my best about they never listen..." He said as he laid his head on the desk to rest for awhile.
"Students are always like that...You just have to let them know who is the teacher and who is the student....and also who is the one sitting for the exam" He replied getting closer to ear and nibbled it abit.

"...I know that you are trying to make me feel better but please be more useful..." He said shovering a stack of papers into Mr Pang's hands.
"Help me bring these to the lab" He said leaving the taller man in the staff room.

Once in the lab both of them placed the stack of papers on the desk. Mr Tan remembered that he had things to do in the lab.
"Hey..erm You might want to go first cause I have to finish up some things here first..." He said to Mr Pang.

Smirking he went up to him and and hugged him from the back. "Why? Can't I help you?"
He questioned. "Hey! What are you doing!" Mr Tan shouted.
"Oh nothing....But don't worry I would make your worries go away" Mr Pang said
Without warning,he lurched forward and crashed his lips against the shorter of the two, pushing him back against the desk and locking him there. Marcus leaned back, pressing against the wood and arching up into the other's body, kissing him back with bruising force.
Mr Pang growled in a beastly manner deep in his throat before shoving his tongue in the Shorter's mouth and cupping his crotch with one hand, his other occupied with burying itself under his shirt and roaming over a delightful patch of tan skin. Marcus shuddered and broke the kiss slightly, saliva keeping them connected as he threw back his head and Uttered "We shouldn't do this....Someone might see us"

The taller of the two moaned and began attacking his neck, biting and licking and sucking, with no intention of stopping. "You can't resist me can't you?" He said smirking. A moan escaped his lips.

"Ok if we can't do it here then where do you suppose we do it?" He questioned and looking as his new lover whose face was dyed red. "How...About the toilet?" He said shuddering. Cupping his face he whispered into marcus's ears and said " All right"

OK!!! I'M DONE~ WHEEE!!! SO HAPPY!!!
I couldn't happy but laugh XD
I was trying imagine and I started laughing like a complete idiot....
I don't really know Mr Pang's full name so yea... ><

T^T No Ducan....So getting San...

2007-09-24T02:14:00.000-07:00

I can't get Ducan cause of my Dad (Damn...)

Anyway I'm getting San

He's only $350 SGD so its ok...And I need to get clothes for him too..
He's eyes are big but...He still looks Emo so its not so bad...

I might get for him Wigs from Sunny's Wonderful World...

I can style it to look like Ruki's hair...

This one too ^^

This looks actually like Ruki's old hair style!!

I also wanna get for him PJs!!

I wanna choose the first one *Points below*

They also sell Clothing which look hip hop but it still looks cool

The material used in the pic above is sold out so must choose another one...

....The necklace isn't so bad too...

I think i would get no.3

Oh ya!! The Dollmore waiter outfit is sold out so need to find another way to get the outfit....

So I think I would get him a white shirt and black pants first then make the vest and apron....

The pants are like the kind below but black ones...

Jeans look cool too ^^

And to end it a beanie!!!!

XD

Dollfie Fund....

2007-09-14T20:08:00.001-07:00

I have calculated how much I need to save up....

Ducan Full set(Outfit+Faceup+Wig+Eyeballs)
695USD = 1050SGD

Waiter Outfit (Dollmore)
72USD = 110SGD

Shoes

Chain Cross Longboots
40USD = 60.50SGD

Basic Sneakers(Black)
24USD = 36SGD

Eyes

16mm(M08) Purple
9USD = 14SGD

16mm(F09) Gray
9USD = 14SGD

Pants

Zipper Pants(Black)
28USD = 42 SGD

Two Tone Pocket Jeans(Dark)
31USD = 47SGD

Cargo Pants(Black)
32USD = 49SGD

Accessories

Cross Badge
3USD = 4.50 SGD

Sunglasses(BL/BC)
11.90USD = 18SGD

These are the few items I wanna get for Kyoshi(I named my Ducan even before getting him)

I must resist buying Mags,Punk clothes and other items T^T

BALL JOINTED DOLL~ DUCAN!!!!

2007-09-14T20:08:00.000-07:00

I WANT DUCAN!!!
I need to save up about 1.2k SGD.....

WAIT FOR ME DUCAN!!!

Aren't he just so *drools*

Once I get him I need to get the waiter outfit for him ^^
He would look so cute in it!!!

I need to get more things for him!!
But need to get extra cash T^T

I might want to get him these clothes....

Now I only have about $100.....
I need more!!!! T^T

Sobs

2007-09-05T04:28:00.001-07:00

I really feel like crying whenever I watch cassis.....

The song itself is sad but with the english translation It makes it worst...
When I read the english translation I cry even more..
It reminds me of my ex...Damn that Bastard!
I really hope he would rot in hell and never come out >:D

I really pity the bitches dating him right now <_<
Cause he is a total two timing bastard!!!!

Ok enough of that idiot...

I feel like writing a songfic XD
using Cassis of course...

Whee~ Anyway Having really bad cough and sore throat x.x
Its killing me! And I even lost my voice....

Oh well...Better take medicine and rest...(Like I would rest anyway)

><

2007-09-05T04:28:00.000-07:00

Whee~ Back after not posting for so long XD

STUPID PEOPLE WHO BOUGHT ALL THE GAZETTE LONDON TOUR TICKETS!!!
THEY SHALL ALL DIE!!!!!

I wanted to see Ruki so badly T^T
Well I can go to germany as long as I have someone to follow me....

RUKI! WAIT FOR ME!!! <3

I shall pay for the concert tickets myself but the airfare...My parents I guess XP

I already selling my jrock mags so I can get some extra cash out of that...

I need to study well too...If not its a nono...(duh)

When I found out that the London tickets were sold out I cried myself to sleep that night...Yes...Thats how much I wanted the tickets...I cried the very second when I saw the word SOLD OUT next to the london tour.....

I cry alot Yea I know ><

Brave story is such a nice movie!!! I must buy it once the VCD is on sale!!!
It had potential Yaoi/shonen-ai XD

I cried for the movie...I mean the really hot looking wizard died!!!!well...not really...but yea...

I shall stop ranting and better get studying....

Why is everything so unreasonable......

2007-08-26T05:45:00.000-07:00

I hate myself for being so forgetful...I mean I can't help it if I forget alot...ok maybe too much but things slip my mind easy (the least important ones never last in my head)=X
I'm addicted to Mad Marble Hell Vision!!! It's a nice song I guess....
I have so many orders and quotes to take note of..Dammit><
Why does the prices have to be so bloody high!!! Why am I worried? cause I have to pay up myself if I order (like duh)
I got Clare to be a Ruki fan XD So happy!Finally a person who I can fangirl over Ruki with XD
I think I'm pissing my supplier off abit...she not replying to my msg =X If that happens I lose my job....*prays that she is not pissed off*

Well....Nothing much to say....ok....bye...
*continues to emo along with Ruki* XD

HAHA!

2007-08-11T19:48:00.000-07:00

I found this video is like so unbelieveable!

Ruki's leg waxing company XD It's free!!!
I want to go for it T^T
WHY! WHY DOES RUKI HAVE TO BE SO CUTE! >////<
My bro insulted about the gazemembers....again....calling them all women
And my bro's jacket is too big for me ><
Dammit! Must go get a new jacket before this sat!!!!

RUKI <3

2007-08-03T05:08:00.000-07:00

Ruki is <3 XD
He is so hot and cute >//< He always to have fun while at work *points to some makings of PVs*

This is a pic of him when The GazettE still had Yune as the drummer^^

Ruki creeping closer?! >////<

Ruki looks super hot and smexy in the Burial Applicant PV *nosebleeds*

Wheee~

I think I have said this many many times before but I'm going to cosplay kai...
This time for family day and its the katana PV one ^^

*Is happy and jumps around* XD

Life is very confusing ._.

2007-07-23T05:21:00.005-07:00

Yup....everyone agrees life is confusing..
I guess this is God's punishment for us human -.- (dammit...)
First of all...Everyone lies....(if you didn't you must be Jesus)
Then there are other sins.....which I can't remember right now ><

Anyway because of all these sins the world is in total chaos and misunderstanding....
I don't really understand why people get....pulled down thanks to these sins

First for some they lose respect, then there are who are people who lose whats deep in side them (kindda hard to explain but I think you should get what I mean ><)

I suffer from lying and greed ><
I'm trying to stop being greedy -.- which might take some time...
About lying...Not even sure....If possible which is So not XD

Super bored...My mum thinks that laziness is also a sin -.-
I mean being lazy has nothing about offending God right??

Bleah XP Don't even know whats wrong with me nowadays...

..........

2007-07-23T05:21:00.004-07:00

I did it again...I ordered more things...NOOOOooooooOOOO~
At least the seller is kind enough to wait while I save up about $40 more...phew
Those boots are nice ^^ If possible I try wearing those for Family day *is happy*

Ok enough about my obsession with ordering things and not able to pay for them until the last min -.-....

Yesterday was fun but boring....
Had to attend my nephew's baptism -.-
He didn't vomit during service but during dinner he did....
somemore his clothes were so cute ><

and He got about more than $300!! Can you believe it!! More than $300!!
I want just abit of it but nooooo......><
*is pissed off*

I'm broke -.-

2007-07-23T05:21:00.003-07:00

WTF! I'm broke (again)
I should really really stop ordering and shopping for things =X

Here's the list from my previous post (too lazy to rewrite it)

Things I need to pay up for...
1. Katana $35 (30th july)
2. Punk top $23(this weekend)[paid]
3. Mag $20 (this weekend [paid]
4. Remaining money for boots $70 (end of aug)
5. Insoles $25 (mid aug)
6. White contacts $40-$50 (Has no idea when)

I don't think I can order more things =X
NEED MORE MONEY!!!!
(I know I'm money-faced $w$) -.-.....

-.-.....

2007-07-23T05:21:00.002-07:00

.....I hate school -.- I mean you doesn't....
I have some silly history project to do...(Which I have no choice if not I will fail my history and if I fail my history my deal with my parents wouldn't be valid was means I can't contiune cosplaying and can't get My Ball Jointed Doll -.-...

Tomorrow have fieldtrip to.....forgot the name...some malay town or something like that.....which if I don't go my marks with decrease and I will fail....

Why does EVERY single bloody thing have to do with my marks!!! I can understand that it will help us get higher marks but still...why must we do stupid reports and god knows what!

Whee~

2007-07-23T05:21:00.001-07:00

Yay!! Got my mag today *hugs mag*
Sad it had alot of text and little pics T.T
But I love the poster!! It's such a BIG and nice one XD
Ruki looks very hot in the poster*drools* Uruha looks kindda dazed @.@
Reita looks like his usual self...Kai looks serious again x.x (but he is still cute XP)

I love their outfits for the Burial Applicant PV! 5 hot bishies in leather XD!
Ayu was telling me that she is starting a Burial Applicant PV team for next year streetfest. She wants to go as Ruki (cause they are about the same height)
She asked if I wanted to join and I wanna cosplay as Kai but...There are a few things that I might find a challenge x.x

1. muscles...I need be more muscular...
2. His outfit of the PV....has so many chains!!
3. Will be revealing my shoulders which means more makeup -.-

Yup...thats about it....
But right now must worry for EOY!

With my current hairstyle I maybe able to cosplay Kai from one photoshoot (the one where all of them were in suits and holding katanas XD)

Okay thats all for now!

I need more money!!!....

2007-07-23T05:21:00.000-07:00

Today was super annoying...
First there is bloody sch then there is my parents and then now I have to worry about getting enough money to pay up for all that I order for -.-
I hate myself for ordering so many things....

Things I need to pay up for...
1. Katana $35 (30th july)
2. Punk top $23(this weekend)
3. Mag $20 (this weekend)
4. Remaining money for boots $70 (end of aug)
5. Insoles $25 (mid aug)
6. White contacts $40-$50 (Has no idea when)
7. Gazepicks $12 (anytime can reorder)

So thats all I can remember ordering but I think I still have one or two more which I forgot ><

I right now hav like $30 in my piggy bank and with a few more days worth of savings I would be able to pay up for my punk top and mag ^^

I also ordered one more mag which is coming tomorrow or wed (can't wait XD)

Drew more Gazebabies ^^
sigh....Oh ya I must also like save up enough for my westen style suit....(about 100 over I bet) -.-

Ok another list of things I need to get for EOY

1. Westen style suit
2. Platform boots (ordered)
3. Hair extension (need about 10 of them so around $20)
4. White contacts (waiting for next batch)
5. Top hat (still looking where to get it)
6. black lipstick (has no idea where to get)
7. black nail polish (optional/not really sure if should get)

So for EOY must atleast save up $200...NNNNnnnOOOooooooOOO~

.....

2007-07-21T20:01:00.001-07:00

Haha never update for so long ><>
*note: pic taken from batsu forum...somebody's siggy
*squeezes Ruki baby* You are mine!!! *fangirls*

^^ Is happy now!!!
Oh ya for EOY I'm thinking of going as Kai

^^hehe! I'm sure going to freak afew people out XD

I know shall rant utter nonsense which makes me the way I am now
I have given up on friendship...I hate myself for holding on to things which I wish to get rid off, I hate myself for being so naive and trusting people, I hate MYSELF!
I don't care people say about me anymore cause I would agree with them...
I'm selfish, liar ...etc...
If you say I'm liar then I ask you this are you saying that you never lied in your entire life?!
I trusted many people and now I regret it.....
I have also given up on love...I prefer to be single cause it makes things easier and I wouldn't have make a hassle (No need to lie to parents and wouldn't be heading closer towards hell) I find that I feel happier being alone...I have no idea why but ya Although it is nice to have someone to talk to but it's just I find I'm happier just the way I am and I do not wish to change it to please anyone....If you don't like the way I am then BEAT IT cause I ain't changing!!! (ranting over...)

Okay thats all for now ^^
Oh ya almost forgot!!
Check out my deviantart^^
minichaos.deviantart.com

-.- i hate being auntie...

2007-06-10T04:59:00.001-07:00

As my title says i hate being auntie...why because i have to take care of him...i mean taking care of him is okay its the crying and feeding him... when he crys my sister and mum scold i mean i didn't do anything -.- when they give me the bottle to feed him they complain about how i'm holding the bottle is wrong... also he needs someone to be around so who gets the job... Me! i sit there are about 10mins then i leave when i get bored but then my mum would scold me and make me stay there even longer -.- I don't hate my Nephew or anything... i just hate the reponsibility of being an aunt...

Uruha's Birthday!

2007-06-10T04:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was Uruha's birthday so for a belated birthday present i'll draw him ^^
People love him because of his thighs but i love him because i love the way he plays XP(i would agree i sometimes nosebleed when i see his thighs thats occational)
anyway...
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY URUHA!!
Gazerock is not dead!!!

Granado Espada!!

2007-05-22T01:19:00.002-07:00

Haha... today is the same..
playing GE, getting scolding from mum for playing GE, drawing Gazette again,Stealing chocolate from fridge,Rotting in my room due to boredom and taking care of my nephew.

well i discovered that i can make my characters in GE do different poses -.- which i know everyone knows but ya... I made my wizard (Male) kissing my musketeer's(female) hand and my fighter(female) well... was crossing her arms.. well this might explain *refer to picture below*

haha if i was laughing when i did these poses ^^ anyway I am surely going to come up with more poses like these... maybe even better ^^ maybe yaoi haha

Boring day

2007-05-22T01:19:00.001-07:00

Today was well... boring
I finally drew Aoi properly ><
I lvled up quite a few times today on Granado Espada. Now lvl 17^^ haha. I usually just leave my laptop on and leave my characters on hold mode (they stay in one spot and contiune to fight the surrounding monsters) so all i have to do is sit and watch haha
Oh ya yesterday Reita's bdae ^^
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY REITA!
....there is also a anime character design course so i dunno if i should go for it =/
Also my nephew kept kicking me in his sleep...(he was sleeping on my bed while i played Granado Esapada) The piano music at the login seemed to put him to sleep -.-zzzz
Life is pretty boring...maybe i should go out more but no... my parents had to ground me >O
Now i'm stuck at home...sitting in my room and rotting to dead x.x well my laptop is going for a holiday with my bro thanks to my mum -.- bye lappy T.T damn you mum and bro >==(x.x)==>
Maybe i should draw Ruki next (again) *sighs* This is going to be a boring June holiday i guess...

I hate the world

2007-05-22T01:19:00.000-07:00

.....Life is such a pain..
First I end up JUST passing most of my tests and now with the whole incident in school..
I mean i get it that they dont want me to know what is going on but, would it hurt them to at least just not talk about whatever they want to talk in front of me and leave me hanging -.-

Anyway I think all should be fine by well tomorrow... what a bother
Yup and well I cant wait to watch pirates 3 haha been waiting for it since march ><> I LOVE GAZETTE<3! hehe the thought of them makes me feel better ^^

I couldn't login to audi today *sighs* & ya.... I dont play audi much because...
1. Lenny doesn't come online much anymore T.T
2. Very tired of trying to lvl
3. Annoying mother
4. RiP
5. Stupid audi oni-san
6. Has noone to play with..

Well that sums it up -.-

Hai... people say my life is perfect... well guess what it is not ... it is just boring
nothing interesting happens... and if it did, I would get bored easily.

Why does God have to punish me this way....
I dont hate God but maybe its because i didnt pray... oh well learnt lesson haha
*is talking off topic*

yup ^^ Now that you see i'm talking crap, you can tell that i'm bored -.-;