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Tuesday, October 23, 20071:27 AM

Kyoshi Rukai <3

I finally got him!!!!!

Bleah....never update so long -.-.....

Anyway....

Pic spam!!!!!!!

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My emo boy <3

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Ru-chan trying act like his father >////<

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Innocent Rukai

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Random pic of him smoking

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Rukai: Don't take pics of me!

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Another cool pose

Ok thats all the pics i have so far.....
Will take more pics as soon as i sew for him more clothing and get him restringed....


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1:27 AM

CLICK 5!!!!

OMFG!!!!!!!!

Click 5 came to my school!!!!!! *Fangirls*
I wasn't a fan of theirs at first but i thought that the guy in the middle looked cute when i saw the advert....

We were asked to record/take pics of the event....
I had the video cam so it was ok cause i didn't need to move anywhere...(lazy)
I had to stand on a table cause it was going to be chaotic and they didn't want the camera/camera person to be hurt.....

When i was standing up there i felt really really tall ^^V
I was eyeing the albino guy that was standing at the back...He can so cosplay Bou! His hair colour was white...its natural of course.... x.x

I wish i was a albino...that way can have very pale hair colour and have very very nice eyes too *daydreams*
But the sad part is that albinos have a very high chance of getting skin cancer x.x
........

Oh yea while standing on the table, i was taller then the male teachers~ Muhahaha!
The camera was working with me and so was the tripod....

When the click 5 members arrive, I swear i thought i was about to die x.x
One because of the fangirl screams, and two i was about to fall off the table...and oh yea....i kindda started screaming myself x.x (maybe because everyone else was screaming x.x)

The DJs from Muttons in the morning/midnight were funny as usual :D
They first said about giving out Click 5 merchandise but in the end they came there themselves.....so it was kinnda...surprising for some but for me i found it...kinnda strange when they said that they were giving out their merchandise cause that would mean that they lose alot of money...so i kindda suspected that they were coming there......

They must be having a jet lag cause they seemed....zombified/dull/bored/tired...(Ok you get it...)

Ben looked pissed off x.x but i guess its because of the jet lag or maybe he didn't get enough sleep....

Kimberly(the girl which made this possible) got a hug from ben and her friend too( forgot her name x.x)

When they were about to leave...they were stopped by fangirls/school girls..... and they were giving autographs! But the stupid conselor didn't let me go down(damn her)

Ms Tay got lots of their autograph! and so did my principal!!! WTF!!! I WANTED THEIR AUTOGRAPHS SO THAT I COULD SELL IT ON EBAY!!!!! (what luck....oh well...)

I think i would appear on tv tonight~ *crosses fingers*
In the end I ended up chasing them till the school gates....i waved to them ^^ they waved back of course~ One of them showed us a heart shaped thing and waved it~ So cute!!!

Kyle is cute ^^

Ok enough fangirling for now i guess....
BUT GAZETTE IS STILL MY ONE AND ONLY LOVE!!! AND SO IS RUKI!! NOONE WILL TAKE HIS PLACE IN MY HEART!! <3
Love ya Ruki ^^ (Sorry i didn't fangirl about you ><)

I really hope that the Gazemen come to singapore!!! <3
I would hug...ok more like glomp Ruki and never let go~ Ruki is mine!!!!!
MUHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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Tuesday, October 9, 20071:38 AM

-.- Money problems again..........

-.- .....I spent all my money ><
Now don't have enough money for anything.....

I need to pay up about $135 to alice for Rukai
Its not a bad price cause she is changing the acrylic eyes to Glass eyes which looks better...and they are very bright ^^

After that I need to pay up the deposit for my pants and creepers ><
Ok I'm so killing myself already....My parents would kill me further if I work so I need to ask my siblings for the extra $$ T^T

Either way I'm going to be broke! Whats more I wouldn't get money for Mon-wed cause no sch!! NOOOO!!!
I only have about one week left of sch...Which means I would be able to save up about.....at least $60...I'M DOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-.- Well it is all left to my results for my exam....if they turn out good then I would get $400 and maybe I might get Ducan...(Prays for both)

Well I can live without Ducan for now but I seriously need the $400 now!!!!
Ok..I should plan my budget more x.x.......

I hate my obession over spending money......


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1:38 AM

If I had three whishes I wish for.....

If I had three wishes...
I wish to have tons of money,
Receive lots of love and to achieve my dreams

I have the same wishes like Ruki....Which is....What a normal person would wish for...I guess....

Today was tiring....
The science exam was a drag -.- I'm sure to fail...Oh well....

After it I went to Bugis ^^
Was walking around for quite awhile x.x.....

Went there and visited some shops...
I felt so bad disturbing Alice ><
I sms-ed her and asked her if its possible to pay up abit for the remaining deposit for the dollfie cause I'm afraid of using it up x.x...
She was still sleeping....I didn't know >///<
Anyway she came down to the shop and we sat there talking to her....
Dawn was having such a hard time trying to choose what to get but in the end she didn't get anything cause the boots she wanted was too ex and she didn't have that much at that time......

I was happily playing with Hime's Ruki(BJD) ^^
His dread locks are long~
Sad that he can't stand with his boots on...He can only stand when he is bare-footed.....
I'm really excited~ CAN'T WAIT FOR MY OWN BJD!!! KYOSHI RUKAI!!! MY SON!!! I'm waiting for you!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok....nevermind....
Anyway met Orange and paid the money for the batch order...I didn't recognise her x.x (paiseh paiseh)

Went to suntec city and trust me...My feet were about to break off *dies*
I needed water at that time but of all times my mum didn't put a bottle of water in my bag x.x......

Anyway I drew Uruha right after finishing my paper as well...I had 30 mins to do nothing except stare at the clock......

At suntec I drew Reita ^^

YAY I'M BACK TO DRAWING AGAIN!!!
CHEERS ALL~ HOPE THE RESULTS COME OUT GREAT! *Cheers*


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1:38 AM

Lets play a little game ^^

Ok...I'm bored so anyway...I want to play a little which goes like this...

I'll type out the lyrics of a gaze song and try guessing ^^ Oh yea...Its in English ^^

First one

A wintry sky and the broken streetlight cold wind.
Unknown shadow the footprint of desertion.
Freedom was taken.

If it wakes up a gloomy ceiling.
A laughing voice sinks in the eardrum it is soiled.
And violence rapes me.

An understanding is impossible.
Why was I chosen? Someone should answer…

Please answer me it is a horrible dream.
How much should I shout, writhe and suffer?
Please tell me it is a horrible dream.
I shouted many times with losing voice

There is no hand of preparing of the disordered hair.
A laughing voice sinks in the eardrum a faint temperature is mixed in the midwinter.

I persuaded myself, who had a dying voice and began writhing.
Not to lose for living.
I was drowned in the night when I feared and had a dying voice.
Please forgive my dying breath.

Please answer me it is a horrible dream.
How much should I shout, writhe and suffer?
Please tell me it is a horrible dream.
I want to smile again at last.



Try guessing ^^


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1:38 AM

ONLY ONE MORE EXAM TO GO!!!!!!!!!

ONE MORE EXAM TO GO AND I'M FREE!!!!!!!!!!

Art went well....except when the water went on my work -.-....
It was so bad...my final piece did smudge much(thanks God)

my guy looks so much like Uru ^^
i hate watercolours.....they are very hard to handle x.x

The skin tone is freaking hard I tell you....I had to go through a number of colours and mixing until I got a light skin tone x.x....

The girl in my pic looked....horrible..(Result of drawing to many guys)

While I was drawing Vanila(Gackt) was playing in my head x.x
Then I was mentally arguing with myself over the skin tone and the shading......
I love the way i painted the guy's lips :D

It was so nice and pale *Dances around*
I didn't do the shading properly cause...I was in panic..><

Ok....Now I need to revise through chem...Such a sucky subject -.-...
Bio is interesting *Smirk*
Physics is easy...Once you actually get it....

Sian....One more fucking exam and I'm free!!!! FREE LIKE A BIRD!!!!!

Oh yea! On friday, We are going to have a alcohol party :D
Which means SPARKLING GRAPE JUICE!!!!

Oh yea Courtney is going to make Sea Salt ice cream too...I think x.x
We are going to...have fun I think...(Not in the perverted way)....
But I would drink till I get drank...maybe a few sips ^^(Just to stay safe)

MUHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!


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1:38 AM

Art~

Tomorrow is my Art exam....

I already did my research...Now need to paint and make it better.....
I hate drawing small pics....I had to draw small so that a few sketches can fit in the last page x.x....

I suck in drawing small things...

Anyway Hope I do well ^^
This my only chance!!!

I need an A for this!!!! If not I would kill myself....Ok maybe not but I would be emo-ing............

At least I would be able to draw Ruki/Uruha and Mana...
Don't understand what I mean??

Well....I would using Ruki's face structure, Uru's Facial Features and Of course Mana's Girly features :D

Yes...I'm killing myself....Oh well...I love killing myself anyway ^^
I have gone mad!!!!!


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Saturday, October 6, 200711:41 PM

Fuck....No more ink....

I feel like killing Mr Sim....DIE MR SIM!!!!

He made my printer ink finish with his notes!!!!
(not that I'm saying that I don't want his notes...)

Sian...Now no ink to print out for my art exam research.......
..................................

I'M BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY SON!!!! I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TO PAY UP FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

RUKAI!!! my darling beloved son T^T I'm such a bad parent... T^T

Now I know how parents feel like....Spending money on their children...but for them Children are like....Free....While I have to pay $350 for him -.-.....

IGNORE MY RANTING!!!
(exam stress)


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Friday, October 5, 20075:03 AM

Pink?!

RUKI IN PINK SO ULTRA CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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He makes pink look good~
I usually hate pink but once its on him I guess I love it XD
Ok...I'm being biased again -.-....

Anyway...

Ruki's Jacket!!!!!!!!!
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I love his belt!!! <3

Sian...I need to draw jrockers for art...Not that I'm complaining but It just so hard...And I hate researching -.-.....

I prefer to just draw on the spot...but Research does it part in some work at times..........

Ok Carry on with your life and ignore me~


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Thursday, October 4, 20073:04 AM

Exams are a killer.....

Finished Eng,MT,Lit....(At least I not worry about MT anymore)

Tomorrow have Geography -.- I hate it...But its okay I guess......
Next week got History,Maths,Art(My fav <3) And science....

Still have to suffer till all are over T^T
Today for Lit I think my hand almost died....I wrote 7-8pages worth of words (Didn't leave lines) for 2hrs straight....Its a miracle my hand still lives....

I didn't do the last question properly cause I only had 30mins left to finish x.x
I hate myself....-.-...

I hope I get at least a 70 for all that writing.....
Or else I would kill the marker!!! (Wish I could)

Sian.............
Need to save up hell lot of money x.x
Need to save up about $80 for my Rukai's Clothings,wig and accessories....and $175 for the remaining deposit for Rukai......

Selling my punk tops to Vogue so can get atleast $90 out of that....
I need to start working once exams are over~


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Havoc aka. minichaos
B'dae=27 FEB
Likes=Drawing,Cosplaying,Listening to the GazettE,Online gaming & emoing
Dislikes=Veggies,Chemistry, Nagging,Flamers,Myself
Fave bands: Gazette(duh),12012,Linkin Park,MCR
Fave food: Beef(Yummy),Pizza,double cheese burger and cheesy fries
Fave snack: CHOCOLATES!!!!!!!
Fave drink: Coke/Pepsi
Fave songs from the Gazette: Cassis,Filth in the beauty,Burial Applicant,Hyena and Taion <3
Fave person to draw: Uruha~
Fave Jrockers: Ruki<3,Kai<3,Wataru<3


I see a shooting star

Meet Ruki in person and get a kiss from me <3(Like that would ever happen but a person has their dreams right?)
Be a millionaire
Meet my one true love(?)
Do a good cosplay
Be a good realism artist
Get jrocker hair
Get my dream job
PSP
Lip piecing(Maybe once i'm free from my parents...)
More PS2 Games
A happy life...
Your ticket out of here

Tifa
Adrian
Aoi
Crimson
Fye
Icy
Pear
Jana
Ayu


My past

May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007