Yup....everyone agrees life is confusing.. I guess this is God's punishment for us human -.- (dammit...) First of all...Everyone lies....(if you didn't you must be Jesus) Then there are other sins.....which I can't remember right now ><
Anyway because of all these sins the world is in total chaos and misunderstanding.... I don't really understand why people get....pulled down thanks to these sins
First for some they lose respect, then there are who are people who lose whats deep in side them (kindda hard to explain but I think you should get what I mean ><)
I suffer from lying and greed >< I'm trying to stop being greedy -.- which might take some time... About lying...Not even sure....If possible which is So not XD
Super bored...My mum thinks that laziness is also a sin -.- I mean being lazy has nothing about offending God right??
Bleah XP Don't even know whats wrong with me nowadays...
I did it again...I ordered more things...NOOOOooooooOOOO~ At least the seller is kind enough to wait while I save up about $40 more...phew Those boots are nice ^^ If possible I try wearing those for Family day *is happy*
Ok enough about my obsession with ordering things and not able to pay for them until the last min -.-....
Yesterday was fun but boring.... Had to attend my nephew's baptism -.- He didn't vomit during service but during dinner he did.... somemore his clothes were so cute ><
and He got about more than $300!! Can you believe it!! More than $300!! I want just abit of it but nooooo......>< *is pissed off*
WTF! I'm broke (again) I should really really stop ordering and shopping for things =X
Here's the list from my previous post (too lazy to rewrite it)
Things I need to pay up for... 1. Katana $35 (30th july) 2. Punk top $23(this weekend)[paid] 3. Mag $20 (this weekend [paid] 4. Remaining money for boots $70 (end of aug) 5. Insoles $25 (mid aug) 6. White contacts $40-$50 (Has no idea when)
I don't think I can order more things =X NEED MORE MONEY!!!! (I know I'm money-faced $w$) -.-.....
.....I hate school -.- I mean you doesn't.... I have some silly history project to do...(Which I have no choice if not I will fail my history and if I fail my history my deal with my parents wouldn't be valid was means I can't contiune cosplaying and can't get My Ball Jointed Doll -.-...
Tomorrow have fieldtrip to.....forgot the name...some malay town or something like that.....which if I don't go my marks with decrease and I will fail....
Why does EVERY single bloody thing have to do with my marks!!! I can understand that it will help us get higher marks but still...why must we do stupid reports and god knows what!
Yay!! Got my mag today *hugs mag* Sad it had alot of text and little pics T.T But I love the poster!! It's such a BIG and nice one XD Ruki looks very hot in the poster*drools* Uruha looks kindda dazed @.@ Reita looks like his usual self...Kai looks serious again x.x (but he is still cute XP)
I love their outfits for the Burial Applicant PV! 5 hot bishies in leather XD! Ayu was telling me that she is starting a Burial Applicant PV team for next year streetfest. She wants to go as Ruki (cause they are about the same height) She asked if I wanted to join and I wanna cosplay as Kai but...There are a few things that I might find a challenge x.x
1. muscles...I need be more muscular... 2. His outfit of the PV....has so many chains!! 3. Will be revealing my shoulders which means more makeup -.-
Yup...thats about it.... But right now must worry for EOY!
With my current hairstyle I maybe able to cosplay Kai from one photoshoot (the one where all of them were in suits and holding katanas XD)
Today was super annoying... First there is bloody sch then there is my parents and then now I have to worry about getting enough money to pay up for all that I order for -.- I hate myself for ordering so many things....
Things I need to pay up for... 1. Katana $35 (30th july) 2. Punk top $23(this weekend) 3. Mag $20 (this weekend) 4. Remaining money for boots $70 (end of aug) 5. Insoles $25 (mid aug) 6. White contacts $40-$50 (Has no idea when) 7. Gazepicks $12 (anytime can reorder)
So thats all I can remember ordering but I think I still have one or two more which I forgot ><
I right now hav like $30 in my piggy bank and with a few more days worth of savings I would be able to pay up for my punk top and mag ^^
I also ordered one more mag which is coming tomorrow or wed (can't wait XD)
Drew more Gazebabies ^^ sigh....Oh ya I must also like save up enough for my westen style suit....(about 100 over I bet) -.-
Ok another list of things I need to get for EOY
1. Westen style suit 2. Platform boots (ordered) 3. Hair extension (need about 10 of them so around $20) 4. White contacts (waiting for next batch) 5. Top hat (still looking where to get it) 6. black lipstick (has no idea where to get) 7. black nail polish (optional/not really sure if should get)
So for EOY must atleast save up $200...NNNNnnnOOOooooooOOO~
Haha never update for so long ><> *note: pic taken from batsu forum...somebody's siggy *squeezes Ruki baby* You are mine!!! *fangirls*
^^ Is happy now!!! Oh ya for EOY I'm thinking of going as Kai
^^hehe! I'm sure going to freak afew people out XD
I know shall rant utter nonsense which makes me the way I am now I have given up on friendship...I hate myself for holding on to things which I wish to get rid off, I hate myself for being so naive and trusting people, I hate MYSELF! I don't care people say about me anymore cause I would agree with them... I'm selfish, liar ...etc... If you say I'm liar then I ask you this are you saying that you never lied in your entire life?! I trusted many people and now I regret it..... I have also given up on love...I prefer to be single cause it makes things easier and I wouldn't have make a hassle (No need to lie to parents and wouldn't be heading closer towards hell) I find that I feel happier being alone...I have no idea why but ya Although it is nice to have someone to talk to but it's just I find I'm happier just the way I am and I do not wish to change it to please anyone....If you don't like the way I am then BEAT IT cause I ain't changing!!! (ranting over...)
Okay thats all for now ^^ Oh ya almost forgot!! Check out my deviantart^^ minichaos.deviantart.com
Havoc aka. minichaos
B'dae=27 FEB
Likes=Drawing,Cosplaying,Listening to the GazettE,Online gaming & emoing
Dislikes=Veggies,Chemistry, Nagging,Flamers,Myself
Fave bands: Gazette(duh),12012,Linkin Park,MCR
Fave food: Beef(Yummy),Pizza,double cheese burger and cheesy fries
Fave snack: CHOCOLATES!!!!!!!
Fave drink: Coke/Pepsi
Fave songs from the Gazette: Cassis,Filth in the beauty,Burial Applicant,Hyena and Taion <3
Fave person to draw: Uruha~
Fave Jrockers: Ruki<3,Kai<3,Wataru<3
I see a shooting star
Meet Ruki in person and get a kiss from me <3(Like that would ever happen but a person has their dreams right?)
Be a millionaire
Meet my one true love(?)
Do a good cosplay
Be a good realism artist
Get jrocker hair
Get my dream job
PSP
Lip piecing(Maybe once i'm free from my parents...)
More PS2 Games
A happy life...
